If surrender is part of the key to freedom, then it must be determined what, exactly, is being surrendered to.
Surrendering implies a battle. A resistance. A fight. So that then begs the question: What am I resisting? And why?
These are the questions that will lead toward surrendering to the right things. What I've determined so far is this:
Discipline. I resist discipline because I am rebellious. Because I don't like being told what I can't do or can't have. Because I am tired of not having what I can't have. Because I am tired of not having.
Reality. I resist the reality that my body responds to certain things better than others. Because I want to eat what I want to eat. Because I rationalize this is practicing all things in moderation. Because I don't like my reality, and I want a different one.
Rest. I resist being still because I am afraid I will get fat. I am afraid I will get lazy. I am afraid I will get complacent. I am afraid I will get comfortable. I am afraid I will get lost in the silence. And so I don't allow for it.
Leading. I resist the promptings of the Holy Spirit because I am afraid of what he's going to ask of me. Because I don't trust he truly has my best interests at heart. Because I suspect he cannot, or more accurately will not, meet my deepest needs.
Intimacy. I resist drawing near to God, to my husband, to my own inner being. Because I don't believe their love is unconditional. Because I fear opening my heart to them only to be rejected. Because I question their motives. Because I question their hearts.
These are the battles in which I am engaged. The entities to which I must surrender if I am ever to be captured by Freedom. I question if I am able. But I am told I can do all things through the strength of another more powerful than I...
There are battles we all fight. Things we all resist. Truths to which we must surrender. When you feel that fear or rebellion within your own spirit, what is it you are resisting? Feel free to tell me about it...